Yes, another long time to get round to posting, but well, summer stuff! Least of all my birthday yesterday. Twenty years old...wow!  Still, it was a good day.

Finally get stuck into some of my reading for the new term, so busy times, but all the RP is still good. With Poly, Risa is recovering from break up since she and Otani got back together, Ren is struggling with his feelings for his roommate and has Eliza poking him for it, *so fun!!* and now I have Hikari from S.A., she's all hyped with an idea for her and Tohru (Furuba) for work. I'm also enjoying time as my OC Morana on Chaos Unraveled, lots of crazy antics, especially since it's Pirate week!!  Reminds me, better finish her page of the wiki, and Hikari's profile...

GUMAF is doing well, we're sorting things out for Freshers Fair. Well, me and Naz are, the boys have been absent of late. Well, they'll get their duties!  I'll get to mine over the next couple of days, once the mess with my brothers room getting redone is finished. Hopefully I can see Sharky next week as well for late Birthday fun!!  I miss Kat though...

What else is new...um, new addiction with J-Drama's, New York comes ever closer...

Wow, lot of drabbling, and it probably makes no sense. Well, my brain is somewhat frazzled so that may explain it.

Off to check up with emails, so until next time!!

Well, at least I caught up on a lot of stuff, so now, the gist of life for the past month or so...

STUDYING!! >.<

Yeah, enough said there, but now I am free, though I do wish my parents would lay off on the 'Don't waste all your summer on that thing' lecture. ¬_¬

Well, exams went pretty well, just the fretting over the results now really. Though I have had the chance to have fun with some of the GUMAF members. We hung out on the last day of term in the QM before wasting our hours on eating junk food at a house nearby two of them share. Didn't get home till after midnight, and my gran was rather panicked since she was waiting for me to phone, and didn't think I'd be so late. She just worries, but I love her. Also went with some members to Tokyopop Recon in East Kilbride, much madness such as hairbraiding and Furna winning a wristband, then nearly getting her ears pulled off by Mystic. ^^;;

And as much as I've denied it, I really need to get rid of this creative block! Curse it so!! I hate it. I need to write, and draw dammit!!  And I feel really bad for stuff I promised but have failed at making. Especially for Lisa.

Well, at least my Poly times have been good, much much craziness with my muses, Risa (Love Com) and Ren (Shaman King). Should link their profiles for all to see. XD And I still have to think of crazy things to do in apping Shuichi, and finding characters to do for Marys roleplay as well.

And am really enjoying my anime times of late. Soul Eater, Special A and Vampire Knight...YAYS!!

And my mum's brithday tomorrow, so best to bed now!!!

WARNING: Serious stressed emo venting of emotion, you have been warned!

Well, that is the end, of a few things.

A friendship: I really loved the time we had together, but now I can honestly say I am being ignored, and I am fed up. I don't know what changed, what made things turn out this way, why I was being freezed out.

It might have been something I've done, I don't know, there was no complaint. Perhaps a change of heart on our friendship, I don't know, again, no word. And that hurt more than if I had just been told simply and plainly not to speak to her again.

I would have tried to fix things, but how could I when there was no word back? Nothing can come from a one sided conversation like this.

I hate cutting ties with someone who I had many good times with and loved so dearly as a friend, but I can't take this anymore. I don't see why I was kept in the dark. If it was a fair relationship, if she respected me like I did her, she should have just told me, instead of stringing me on, letting me have false hope that she would reply to my messages.

As I said in my final note, I will remember the good times, and if one day she chooses to talk to me again, I would hear her out. I don't want to be bitter por hold a grudge, but I can't cope right now with so many restless nights wondering because of her, it's not fair. And I don't want to mistreat others because I'm hanging on to this feeling.

So, if you are reading, whether we talk again or not, I'll remember you for the fun times, not this.

A pet: Josie died yesterday afternoon, just as he was trying to fly for the last time, before falling back on my mums pillows in her bed, where she had put him since that morning to make him feel comfortable.

I was crying hard, I couldn't even bare looking at him lying motionless, let alone touch him like Mum asked. I could only stroke him when he was wrapped up in a napkin and I couldn't see him.

He was taken out by my parents last night to the cementery, and buried in the same plot we have for Emma, my little sister. He's at peace, not in pain, with the angels now. It was lucky it was my mums day off and she was there to look after him, Gran and I would have just fell to pieces.

Joey, my grans bird is staying with us while her flat is getting redone. He was on top of his cage in the morning, looking at Josie lying there. Birds aren't stupid, he knew what was going on.

Go here, to read a little poem I did in thinking of Josie: http://bell-of-stories.livejournal.com/1761.html

Sorry about that everyone, off to get read for work now, see you all soon.